A letter from March 12th, 2018

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Today it's been 15 days since your dad passed away and it feels like it was yesterday. You still don't really believe that happened and it hurts so bad to get inside of that bedroom. I hope you're coping better now. Is mom ok? Have you and your S/O decided to live with her or have you moved out? Congratulations on your 8th aniversary with Him. I'm 100% sure you probably have been married for almost two years now. Do you guys plan on having kids anytime soon? Do you already have them? Right now, I'm struggling to get a job while mourning and helping mom. I'm not giving up because I know you depend on that to be with the love of your life and to make your dream come true, but it's so hard. Well this letter is just for you to remember how hard things once were and how much better you are now. Things might not be that good for you, I know future won't be all fun and games and roses and stuff but It can't get any worse than it is now, so yeah you're probably better than I am, lucky person! See you in 3 years.

Epilogue

2 days later

Dear past me. I'm so sorry for our loss. It's somewhat refreshing to get this card, since I didn't really remember much from that time (It all went blank after...

E)ilwh a. Wot ienttgg itwh ouy royu ryou oerv shueo oyu nvee ni of nwo nealo e'oryu asusneesin ruyo mmo etg did rthee mnweo tspn'era adn seepl mohe ni nicse a. .
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'smmo nigod. . . Ok. Esh tno os orews fi ahnt hatw eryu'o 'sesh isnkga saw, tsh'at. . . Eyah.
Ruoy aebeusc asebcue it wtih to ym corytnu eh na'ro tlsil and fo ot ielv btu em ndloct'u amek edddice os/ e,rh ereh seh' tno. Eh ousppsed a they pltemlycoe ewf teh ekwes tuhs aretf ordresb was ot fly.
8th ruo codlu haeiprp fi we ,wsa lnutodc' nsvireayra plyhasicly e(w,ll be we ortetghe estardyye ,ednedi dan weer ew. ).
Ckab re'ew ceha rhteo uro by ethwig prapat nteh inannplg eenv yuo ldyaare narloiig wish oe'ruy egniwdd mfro nad ouyr to. Reew' hte lscoteh wopprreka dna nda neveu cear fo ankitg.
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Nuaeit eladary a y,aw ueoy'r boy the yb aklw cna yteahlh wno, fo na how. Nath reriela bleiuuatf dna eh ubt a ahytlhe amce t,o tomnh sh'e pspsoedu eh swa 1%00 ni.
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Roetw nsothm hte rettel tsrta ouy eftar 2 rgwinko did oyu. You tgo boj enci a dema wsa tnmael tub liek were ellh it it gdoo ryuo emse hlaeht iwth ypa yuo ksci a ni dan. Up omsthn dawr a in arlte 5 uoy ndede hsycp. 6gk1 you dn'to i on treeh minoten anig a g?k03 wr,yor aertf dan ouy ugtnonic mhe,t maed egva eth of uy'oer good tgknia diet ddi a ttcrsi oyu nda ryae sdme hety ltos nwo.
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Ryt kept on hte a whit itwhni ye)ra reew uyo dgnio arfte up ewkse ahd teilumlp uyo dpnepahe oyu osbj nothm insec htis wfe gvea lsat nda ightn eebn you praheyt sjtu eht a up wsa esma or th,at yoru( riedt nltui 91 yanajru nda. )rwsdo one ohw no'td illsacyba ot disa buescae uroy hitw adn giohscsplsoyt clue eelf ynlo si lsta he oyu utb( twchsi ehlp orfmre oseth aeonmry on ginmka eewk foecrbtmalo dna ot elnoni ahd tsyhciasitpr odgni ahs ont pimtptannsoe sheet oyu.
No you oyu how doog had deia apnmetnpito ehs is ahev oyln yte one so.
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But ayw, adh nda negbi redit andhel leik sure ewre a uyo lcdou teh yuo inrmueca t,aht ytpetr yb uyo uyo. . No oesurtmcs? a mheas it wsa nstpe 4 myadeca eth het umhc nymeo shcu osuecr maalsitre nda lani a ahd so ttah oogd gaedr ouy nad uyo on icnse.
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Ice udfon eevssr go ananw oelxepd cmrea for nsmt!ho ntlmae otaoehccl yuo ihtw adn was on emviprod aws lcduo dna yutaacll uhsc hsti esatt vcisnaota uoy ,lgesbsni arye hte atth it leapc uyro ni uoy yesar 9 sirtf htta eayr a akems uspralee cnasrsitos thsi.
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And reosw ettuaylfr,unon domo ssnwgi eben scnei agnlisiyecrn uoyr orwes aehv v,oerebmn. Uyo ramces, evry dxple,eo ieagcr,hlt etg too ,yrc cmuh gulah way. . . Lal traetm of a in hurso. Geanxhstui ahs so eben ti. . . .
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Nja 2s1t mel yaaw aspdes no teh. Ceuebas away dad eeovdeldp for goa eh nda ish doitnc,ino eag ihgtnno ot eftar kwae ihs and shi fo oto saw tbeter kcsi iwht eh a kiel aeyr do headt adpess eddeni dha mrtuo tub iankd asw he a teg raeht ddi seray 3. Sotcord cudlo yeht eerihngtvy did.
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Dba rea nad rloam pngehnapi srewo godo whne aswayl 'hrtese c'tna stroy, ear tge tath itsnhg abd eht vene ntshig tnhisg erven goneuh engpihpna they fo.
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