A letter from March 12th, 2018

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Today it's been 15 days since your dad passed away and it feels like it was yesterday. You still don't really believe that happened and it hurts so bad to get inside of that bedroom. I hope you're coping better now. Is mom ok? Have you and your S/O decided to live with her or have you moved out? Congratulations on your 8th aniversary with Him. I'm 100% sure you probably have been married for almost two years now. Do you guys plan on having kids anytime soon? Do you already have them? Right now, I'm struggling to get a job while mourning and helping mom. I'm not giving up because I know you depend on that to be with the love of your life and to make your dream come true, but it's so hard. Well this letter is just for you to remember how hard things once were and how much better you are now. Things might not be that good for you, I know future won't be all fun and games and roses and stuff but It can't get any worse than it is now, so yeah you're probably better than I am, lucky person! See you in 3 years.

Epilogue

2 days later

Dear past me. I'm so sorry for our loss. It's somewhat refreshing to get this card, since I didn't really remember much from that time (It all went blank after...

Wl)ieh a. Y'oeru dna eehtr omhe evro ni oruy iencs oenal wno mmo shueo uoyr twih otw etg uyo oyru peesl of oyu ni tspr'ane did wmeon vnee tetggni seeinaussn a. .
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'osmm godni. . . Ko. Hatst' hs'es ewros w,as if not so uo'rey esh thaw ikgnsa htan. . . Heya.
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Oen ouy seh os eahv is hda ottnnapemip on ylon how yet daei odog yuo.
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Uyo ranmeciu eurs eerw teh ikle adh ,taht you and a codul uoy way, by lhdaen geinb oyu tbu ertdi ryeptt. . The adn omyne odog a so it 4 regda hmuc a no oyu saw nseci lmaiesatr tsenp you sect?ourms ucsreo semha caamyde chsu nail dha and teh no hatt.
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Omod senci eniiaygnlsrc veah rl,oyeufunatnt gswisn ewsro been dan wroes oruy nemob,vre. Awy hmcu haglu get ouy sra,emc veyr ,edeoxlp oot ,ryc etrhia,glc. . . Shour fo emttar lla a in. Ti neeb engitsuaxh ahs so. . . .
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St12 jna no awya edspas lme teh. Do ldedveoep idtnonoi,c nkdai nda eh too hotning icsk did seyar 3 shi wtih aayw gao eh ish saw nda btu aeg urtom wkea bettre ish a etg ededni of dha eraft aedssp eathd for atreh ayer he add asw a ot leik sbuceea. Enetrihgyv htye uodlc ordsoct idd.
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Oy,rts hnpnpgeai yawsla fo erows nad enahpnipg gnstih ogdo atth rea aer hte itnhgs ct'na tge wnhe sinhtg lamro neev hguoen neevr bda ser'hte heyt bda.
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