A letter from March 12th, 2018

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Today it's been 15 days since your dad passed away and it feels like it was yesterday. You still don't really believe that happened and it hurts so bad to get inside of that bedroom. I hope you're coping better now. Is mom ok? Have you and your S/O decided to live with her or have you moved out? Congratulations on your 8th aniversary with Him. I'm 100% sure you probably have been married for almost two years now. Do you guys plan on having kids anytime soon? Do you already have them? Right now, I'm struggling to get a job while mourning and helping mom. I'm not giving up because I know you depend on that to be with the love of your life and to make your dream come true, but it's so hard. Well this letter is just for you to remember how hard things once were and how much better you are now. Things might not be that good for you, I know future won't be all fun and games and roses and stuff but It can't get any worse than it is now, so yeah you're probably better than I am, lucky person! See you in 3 years.

Epilogue

2 days later

Dear past me. I'm so sorry for our loss. It's somewhat refreshing to get this card, since I didn't really remember much from that time (It all went blank after...

)lwhei a. Yoru nad insesnesau you uoeyr' etehr oryu eespl oalen of eincs ni a yuo omm osheu enapr'st ggntite won rove ohem mneow even idd yrou thiw ni get wot. .
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Odign mmso'. . . Ko. 'hsatt ont sw,a so agsnik erswo atwh 'hsse fi oy'reu ehs tnha. . . Hyae.
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T8h ruo s,wa be srverinaya ew lcodu we isylcayhpl we fi ewer asyedryet ,l(wle eohrttge and needdi, hepriap n'tlocdu. ).
Patrpa dlearya igwhet u'eyro yb gilrniao rewe' nnipglna kcab fomr ache ouy ruoy nda hnte evne hotre uro to wish ngiwedd. Raec tkiang hlsetoc nevue ewe'r dan fo and prorkeawp teh.
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Hte an uenati lkwa ryledaa ybo owh y'ueor hhteyla by of won, y,aw a cna. T,o and eh came eh nath se'h ppsoedsu was lrariee mtohn in etyhahl tuiufelba a tbu 010%.
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Pu inthg no up ogndi a itpmleul dha a fwe you uoy ytr rdiet ithw 19 sjut eth jyraanu tiiwhn weer dna ouy atth, aevg uory( patyhre eweks bsoj nulit mtnho yuo tafre atls and nbee )raey ro ektp pehaepdn was smea hsit eht esicn. Olyn ymaerno owh bloectrmfao ekew (btu nda one uyo nmigak )sdowr sadi misnapttopne no dah etsoh eh ethes mefrro iennol rtstpyhciasi tals eausecb byalclisa shotposcilgsy ihwt ahs lefe royu cleu ot thsciw otn ot uoy tond' nda is hlpe dgnoi.
Oogd aevh eno yet uyo seh dah pmatnoinpte lyno no adie so uoy si owh.
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,atht cudlo etdir and hda the a oyu uicranme tyterp dahlne ewer oyu urse eibgn yb w,ya oyu oyu keil tub. . Laseaitrm htat on spent hte hsema uyo the yuo a yeacdam ti uhcm and os no rcusoe rtssceumo? dogo a dna nyeom dha agrde nlai iecsn 4 shcu aws.
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Cei vssere otsrsacnsi oyu year ibgsn,esl dan pxdeeol yuor fuond ryaes elcpa oyu staovcina swa that ayre in the it aetocolch shn!mot tsih mreac htwi firts go odclu that tihs on 9 swa yuo orf nda attes wanan hcsu etlmna sprueale a eskma rdmeivpo tluylaac.
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Vrneeom,b orsew eenb ahev yuro cseni srweo tuolaynfe,tnur rlcyensaingi snsiwg dmoo dna. Oto oe,lpdxe chum egt ghiealtcr, ayw yrve es,mcra ,yrc ouy lghua. . . Taretm hruso in lla of a. Natughsxei sah bene so ti. . . .
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The t12s jan daspes elm on wyaa. He ddi a aeg aresy asuebec ikcs enedid dda epasds aawy aws i,dionnotc shi wiht death ot weak had ish aog he aeyr do dan erhta ihs lkei but a tghnion 3 orf gte lpeedovde eh dnkia adn oot atefr of etbert saw mruto. Sootdrc tehy idd cluod neegyrvith.
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Panegpnhi of oodg enhw tge c'atn het nad htat swore thngsi inshtg rae tyhe ear osryt, shgtin tehsr'e amlro veen aaslyw dba hnpgpniea veenr dab geohnu.
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