How I was

Dear FutureMe, Hey man, I am writing to you from a year ago. I bet you forgot all about how you wrote this to yourself. Right now I am going through a lot of crap, but if I read this email and see that I have grown, then awesome. But do realize that life will not put you all the way down. Your best friend moved away, your brother and your sister moved on in life and left. Your friends at school are all nowhere near to you as you had with Alex and Jacob. But dont worry man. I bet you anything that you will have a new best friend by the time you read this. I have lost my testimony in the church dude. I don't know how you are faring but I do pray that you have found something in yourself and in the church. Keep praying, keep pushing man. Look up to that stellar woman Stephanie in the ward. She goes through a lot of crap to but has the testimony and faith that most would wish for, including me. She is absolutely gorgous and is everything a mormon guy would look for in a woman. She is set for life. Be there for her and I bet she will be there for you too man. I have no real friendship with her right now, I want you to be great freinds with her by the time you read this. I bet you anything she would keep you on track better than anyone else. Make her an Eternity Friend. And help her out too. Heck, even if you dated her I bet she would scar you for life on how starworthy she is. She made you have flutters in your stomache when she winks at you during church today. If you date her, DO NOT do any of the crap that you did with the other girls. DO NOT ruin her. And if she reads this... I guess I will be embarassed that she found out what I think about her, I don't know if you will be embarrassed..... Remember every single promise you have ever made. I remember promising Alex that I will take care of Bethany from anyone that would hurt her. When you read this you had better say that you have kept up that promise. Otherwise make it up and do better. You promised all your girlfriends that you would watch out for them and take care of them. I make a promise right now to all the world that I will take care of all my friends and even just my accuantances. You have the potential to grow to something stellar Josh. I see that right now looking at me and how ppl follow me like a leader. The boys at church all look up to you man. They do a lot of the things you do. Don't lead them astray. Wrestling season starts in a few days. I am fat and truly gross. I hope that you will reach my dream of getting the six pack and the trimmings. Do yourself a favor once in a while man. And definitly treat every person like they are precious... for they are. Make less enemies and more friends.. Think about how you have grown in the past since you wrote this and how you will grow after you read this. Happy New Year Hombre, Josh from November 2005