A letter from November 1st, 2017

Dear FutureMe, I'm gonna start off by trying to be funny and say: Hopefully, by now you've forgotten what you wrote, so that this all comes as a surprise when you read it. Last time you wrote a letter to yourself, you remembered the whole thing and it wasn't as fun. Currently, I'm working at Circle K, in Fayetteville, formerly known as Nice N' Easy. I have a great job and maybe I'm a bit cocky, but everyone seems to love me. I'm content where I am. It may not be everything I've ever dreamed, but as a first job, it's pretty great. I've officially withdrawn from school. I didn't want to, but it was expensive and I couldn't pay. I plan on returning someday. Everyone always says not to wait to long because "you'll never go back," but I'm positive that I will. When I've officially paid off my loans, I'd like to start by taking a few classes at OCC, which would be a little less expensive and then maybe just do classes online. Right now, I'm not determined enough to pass my classes, so hopefully when the time one's around, I'll be able to do it myself. Along with the plan to go back to school, I'd like to be living on my own soon. Right now, since I'm paying loans and can't even drive its not a possibility, but as soon as all that is taken care of, I might try to push my way into an apartment on my own somewhere. My only problem is that I have Leo and hopefully soon another bird. I'm hoping this won't be too much of an issue when I'm trying to find an apartment, but I'm feeling like it will be. Future self, I believe in you. I believe that you can find the ability to not let other people bring you down. I believe that you will find a way to move past what he did to you and what they did to your mother. One day you won't be sad and you won't even realize when it happened. You have a really great life, don't waste it on negative things. Daddy is watching over you and you know that no matter at he's supporting you. Never forget that he loves you. I sincerely hope you're doing well and haven't messed things up for us. I hope you're in a better place than I am right now. I love you. Don't forget to love you too.