Love.

Dear FutureMe, As this letter is being written, you can clearly remember the seond you figured out that you will love him for the rest of your life. Just in case you have forgotten it by now, here is a reminder: It was when he first told you about the trouble he was having at work. And all you wanted to do was be there for him. Remember that Thanksgiving and how badly you wanted to hop in your car and drive half way across the country just to be with him for a few days - just to see for yourself that he was alright and to remind him that you are always there if he needs you. The realization of what he means to you was not an easy one. Feelings have never scared you this much before because you never had so much to lose. He's been your friend for literally as long as you can remember. And as you are writing this you still aren't sure if your feelings are real or if they were sparked partially due to the fact that you believe that things with him could be so easy. Perhaps you are finally growing up and realized that love isn't about butterflies in the stomach or a heavy attraction but instead is best built on respect, trust, friendship and security. Or maybe its another case of you just wanting what you can never have. Devolping more-than-friendly feelings for him fits your M.O. perfectly. As this letter is being written, you know that the next time you see him you are probably going to tell him everything you have been thinking and feeling about him lately. And there is really no way of knowing how that is going to turn out. By the time you get this letter, things might be really bad. Awkward. If that is the case, call him. Even if you haven't talked for a while because you went and screwed things up. Call him anyway. He has been one of the closest people to you for your entire life. Don't let any awkwardness get in the way of that bond. Remember the twenty plus years of amazing, against-all-odds friendship that the two of you have shared. Remember how important that is to you. Remember that aside from whatever else you might be feeling for him that you loved him as a friend first. Remember what a wonderful person he is and how he has always been the one person that has stuck with you no matter what. Let nothing change that. Love, your past self. Age 28