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Hey, Happy Birthday! Thank you for making it to 18, I'm so proud of you. Life has always been a clutter for you. A repetitive motion of pain, names changed events the same. Do you remember how you always used to cry about it? I hope your tears are gone. I find myself at a loss of words. I've wanted you to never exist, I've hated you for being a hopeless dream. But no, I love you. I love you because you're smarter than me, you're more alive, a lot more free. You now have the ultimate power in your hands; the power to live your life the way you've always wanted it. Keep writing. The stories are in you head, you know how to use your talents to make them real. Yes, you do have talent. Stop denying it! Are you with someone right now? Do they make you happy? I've always wanted love. You know that. Its been everything to me. And don't you dare settle! You're worth everything that everyone has ever doubted you upon. If you're in love and the person returns it, congratulations. I hope every day is worth waking up to. If not, then its okay. I know exactly how you feel, and I can only hope you're smarter than me in that respect. I want you to forget about itm if you could. There's more to life than other people. Do you still have the kitten? I wonder what you've named it. Does it live with you? Or do you have another pet. If not, just get one. You know how you love cats. But really, put some effort into it. I know how lazy you are, dummy! And yeah, another thing, DO SOMETHING! Lazy... Don't even get me started! Well, I hope you don't hate me for what I've done. I acted on feelings more that rationality. I just want to be happy, if there really is any possible way. I hope you've found it. Have a party today! I love you. And be sure to write another one to the me of 21. We really need to talk! - You know who... <3