A letter from July 7th, 2014

Dear FutureMe, When you get this it will be your 18th birthday! Happy Birthday! You would've left Secondary School which means you would have left Josh. I know saying that now really sucks because yeah, I kinda love him. It's almost a known fact that we will/would never be together but I'm okay with that. He's happy with her and that's fine! He's happy! (Just remember to be happy for yourself! You keep forgetting!) At the minute I know I may sound crazy to say that knowing one day I probably won't love him how I do now and it's a sad thought! Remember no matter how well you two get on, how much you have in common that he isn't the one for you. Yeah, that kinda hurts saying that but you have been two years without him now, I remember hating the 6 weeks off because I wouldn't see him. Look at you all grown up and living without him now! :) If you have made it to this day and Lizi hasn't killed you that then don't forget that you and FiFi still need to be badass ghosts when you die! So by this age you would've done your GCSE's and probably A-Levels. I would like to think that you are about to take a gap year to go travelling but i'm not sure how possible that is! If you are on your gap year doing that now then HIGH FIVE to you! When you get back do you think that you could maybe be going off to uni to become a music teacher please? Preferably, at the school you just spent 5 years at. I mean you can play the guitar, ukulele and piano. I know I am kind of hoping that Josh will still be around that area then but shhhh... You plan on moving out anytime soon? I know you are only 18 but you know you are kind of going to uni soon (hopefully! I did say please!) Before I go I just want to say that I hope you have stopped falling asleep to Macy's Day Parade, Basket Case and Let Her Go. Just don't play 'His Songs' or 'Sad Songs' again! It feel so good sending this to somebody and letting all of the Josh situation out as I haven't been able to tell anybody about it! I guess this is goodbye until then! Bye! P.S. Do you know who -A is yet?! Is Ezria still a thing? Does PLL even air still?! Xxx