A letter from February 28th, 2014

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, You're 26 today, congratulations. I am not doin to hot right now but all I can think about is you. The hardship I endure today is for you. The day when I finally know what my calling is and act upon it. I hope you are still working with children, I hope Jeremy is happy, and I bet Julianna is the prettiest 14 year old on the face of the planet. And I bet you have a really hot guy in your life and if you just groaned at that sentence our prince is probably lost somewhere, but he'll find us. But there are two things that I want done by the time I'm your age and if you got sidetracked by reality, just do these for me: 1: Deliver The Letter. I know the date inside says 2013 but it needs to get to it's owner. I don't care where he is right now. 2: Please tell me you traveled. Now I know you so well that I am betting that if I didn't do it you winced and then was filled with regret and then you will try to rationalize not going with something like "But you don't understand little Jenna, I have bills (and probably college loans to pay off)!" Yea, that's not flying. Just do it. Go to Scotland. See a castle. Check out them fairy pools on the Isle of Skye. Geek out at the Sherlock Holmes museum. Recite Sonnet 116 at the Globe Theater. Geek out again at the Doctor Who museum. Do it for me and all the hard days I'm spending dreaming of the day I don't live at home anymore. Or maybe I never figured out what I want to do with my life. Maybe God has thrown a boomerang at my life and I haven't recovered (very likely). Maybe I'm living in the basement. Maybe I have no money. Maybe the entire world has been taken over by cyborg robot squirrels. Maybe I'm dead. Maybe I died in the service of my country defeating the last infantry of the cyborg robot squirrels on the lawn of the White House dying heroically by sacrificing myself to take out the last evil squirrel with their blinking evil red cyborg eyes knowing that without taking out that last squirrel that that one squirrel would immediately make 12,000 more of the demons and that it was my sacrifice alone that brought them down. Maybe the nation erects a monument in my name for my epic sacrifice. Maybe I sell that idea to Disney and Cyborg Robot Squirrels becomes the blockbuster film in 2020 that teaches not just honor and bravery, but also the power of friendship. Or maybe not...But hopefully I'll still like quotes... I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. -F. Scott Fitzgerald

Epilogue

almost 2 years later

Dear Past Me,

God, I wish I could talk to you and actually deliver this message. You were going through so much and felt so alone. I wish I could...

I uodpr of tell am you woh uoy. So ef,il caef rgtnso ywa esbtolasc of yuro so eewr hte tbu uyro nebgi in in many fduon you you. A lehiw tkoo ti. .
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Mrsa'ste og you egsrdee akcb in we ihwhc evah thiw my loclgee nda gratudea rbaescolh or otw uoy styud spboiyls icssoteaa yad emda wulod it veeelib get tcnogauicn asnlp ulah!g neo nt,o and ot tihw my. Food ief,ld a llniagbe elpoectlym irgth mi' ,wno in nefteidrf. Abkc teg eth ecaler of ot agsnirt it off ta lal wild nmrnosgi eboxs ,rehe esod sheto swa nyoeurj apy utb a. I'm eitdfileny o'ndt eyonarm twih ttha wkro ts'i i iefn tub htwi diechnrl.
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Is hypap erejmy. Rvee hant pearihp. Asrey! 01 egudatard eh soal aterf hsti eayr ylnfali.
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Ogse a sady by won j jnaluain. Iysenanl oltcysatnn ptha atntdeel 'heetry wno bfteiuula are dan gfnoirg nad tiehr.
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Kalsa!a si rdcniielbe ni adn semo giond jyo insght is rletcyurn.
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We dan a you vahe erve eyivhtgren do nfid he niercp rfo colud podeh si. In ovlnse eadr sti' lveo w'ere we adn lal tetrbe eht nath. Atth to up kiel den but yevou' ferebo mheo od bene ouy vneer nvmiog mivogn dan tou a aecpl eflse. Reev v'eew tis' tknih eamd tesb i ncdsieio het.
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Em ouy n:hfsii to fro het ewdtan nsbusise.
Seltter the 1: vederldei ew. Yevre tals eon. Spnreo in.
Wendat 0821 did nda nnoldo you did in artvle gvrinhytee 2: i i to to em. The lhwoe msu,ume lto cortdo hwo elts,ac. Sa ritp dalstcon srhteo atke hoep esmo wlel lgrtvanei sa erom for i od i atth eahv and ot alnps. .
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Loeuysrf lysawa ewer btu rfo ahtw metrta borot of cbroyg tnnkhiig hte hawt sqeurilr no ewer ouy this, ton uyo optonri srue. Yrqkiu vnee xd"" ahpes ryou ni. Cna't i lryela ftula hcihw rfo yuo. Tsih efndlyteii hte asw mroe rldwo uyo ddi ni nhat so etrelt eedtrnffi lucdo igaidmne a pmndeaci ivelred veah. .
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Lvoe,.
Nneja.