A letter from February 28th, 2014

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, You're 26 today, congratulations. I am not doin to hot right now but all I can think about is you. The hardship I endure today is for you. The day when I finally know what my calling is and act upon it. I hope you are still working with children, I hope Jeremy is happy, and I bet Julianna is the prettiest 14 year old on the face of the planet. And I bet you have a really hot guy in your life and if you just groaned at that sentence our prince is probably lost somewhere, but he'll find us. But there are two things that I want done by the time I'm your age and if you got sidetracked by reality, just do these for me: 1: Deliver The Letter. I know the date inside says 2013 but it needs to get to it's owner. I don't care where he is right now. 2: Please tell me you traveled. Now I know you so well that I am betting that if I didn't do it you winced and then was filled with regret and then you will try to rationalize not going with something like "But you don't understand little Jenna, I have bills (and probably college loans to pay off)!" Yea, that's not flying. Just do it. Go to Scotland. See a castle. Check out them fairy pools on the Isle of Skye. Geek out at the Sherlock Holmes museum. Recite Sonnet 116 at the Globe Theater. Geek out again at the Doctor Who museum. Do it for me and all the hard days I'm spending dreaming of the day I don't live at home anymore. Or maybe I never figured out what I want to do with my life. Maybe God has thrown a boomerang at my life and I haven't recovered (very likely). Maybe I'm living in the basement. Maybe I have no money. Maybe the entire world has been taken over by cyborg robot squirrels. Maybe I'm dead. Maybe I died in the service of my country defeating the last infantry of the cyborg robot squirrels on the lawn of the White House dying heroically by sacrificing myself to take out the last evil squirrel with their blinking evil red cyborg eyes knowing that without taking out that last squirrel that that one squirrel would immediately make 12,000 more of the demons and that it was my sacrifice alone that brought them down. Maybe the nation erects a monument in my name for my epic sacrifice. Maybe I sell that idea to Disney and Cyborg Robot Squirrels becomes the blockbuster film in 2020 that teaches not just honor and bravery, but also the power of friendship. Or maybe not...But hopefully I'll still like quotes... I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. -F. Scott Fitzgerald

Epilogue

almost 2 years later

Dear Past Me,

God, I wish I could talk to you and actually deliver this message. You were going through so much and felt so alone. I wish I could...

Of am yuo i ordpu tlel woh uyo. You hte fdonu so ryuo cefa awy weer gsotnr in ,ilef inbge os aynm uoy blestcaso ni but oruy fo. Wheli a ti ookt. .
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Adn ady tow vibelee kabc brlshaeco go which sioypbls ihtw ro rmesat's sanlp ucoinngtca teg ym ,otn ew uyo ym ni !lgahu to lduow atcsoaies tusyd dgureaat eglleoc tihw ouy ti veha sereged noe dna amde. Lmyleecotp 'im lilngabe ,wno tfreidfne dfoo a el,fdi hitrg in. Ot at hte ringnosm yrnouje sothe deos pya airsgtn of swa aercel bxseo lwdi ti utb fof h,ere lla abkc a gte. Ttah nief rkow iwht im' hwti tub cidnrehl ist' i on'td enlyiftdie ynmorae.
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Ppyha meyejr is. Tnha eerv eprpahi. Tihs osla 01 lylainf reatf a!srey eh yrae adatudegr.
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By jnlanuia wno a j gsoe dasy. Eihtr dan now rae rete'yh ynlonstcta athp gfnroig teadentl nliyanes tliuebuaf adn.
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Dbneleriic yjo ytlernruc nad is smeo gndoi tsihgn is s!akala ni.
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Nad eerv peicnr dfni orf ouy ahve is we oudlc do a eh ivgthneery oehdp. All ni and eerw' rbtete rdea the 'its hnta nloevs we eolv. Mhoe a vmigno ebne end feerbo minvgo to oyu ilke elpca and btu efels do ttah tuo up reven oevuy'. Ihktn sbte i ever v'wee nosideic mdea ti's the.
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:isnihf for em ussseinb oyu ot dtnwea hte.
We dvreeleid tletesr eth :1. Oen ereyv tsal. Noerps in.
Ddi uyo edntwa idd i yirnthvege nad ni rvleat i :2 lnondo to me ot 2801. Otcdro ltseac, tlo m,eusmu eht woh whelo. I teoshr do peoh panls rof vnetligra sa to i aehv ellw tath meor sa eakt prti loascndt and osem. .
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The st,hi rysfelou tbroo sreu rpotnoi but htaw fro ont oyu ewre yrbocg srqiulre atwh you etramt giknnhit no wree of wasayl. Ruyo d"x" uqriky evne in ehpas. You arlely hchiw ltfua i orf 'cant. Idd mindaeig in a uoy eintliedyf pindecam uodcl eorm athn os etetlr eht vhae deneifrtf edivler iths was wodlr. .
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Eo,vl.
Nnaje.