A letter from February 28th, 2014

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, You're 26 today, congratulations. I am not doin to hot right now but all I can think about is you. The hardship I endure today is for you. The day when I finally know what my calling is and act upon it. I hope you are still working with children, I hope Jeremy is happy, and I bet Julianna is the prettiest 14 year old on the face of the planet. And I bet you have a really hot guy in your life and if you just groaned at that sentence our prince is probably lost somewhere, but he'll find us. But there are two things that I want done by the time I'm your age and if you got sidetracked by reality, just do these for me: 1: Deliver The Letter. I know the date inside says 2013 but it needs to get to it's owner. I don't care where he is right now. 2: Please tell me you traveled. Now I know you so well that I am betting that if I didn't do it you winced and then was filled with regret and then you will try to rationalize not going with something like "But you don't understand little Jenna, I have bills (and probably college loans to pay off)!" Yea, that's not flying. Just do it. Go to Scotland. See a castle. Check out them fairy pools on the Isle of Skye. Geek out at the Sherlock Holmes museum. Recite Sonnet 116 at the Globe Theater. Geek out again at the Doctor Who museum. Do it for me and all the hard days I'm spending dreaming of the day I don't live at home anymore. Or maybe I never figured out what I want to do with my life. Maybe God has thrown a boomerang at my life and I haven't recovered (very likely). Maybe I'm living in the basement. Maybe I have no money. Maybe the entire world has been taken over by cyborg robot squirrels. Maybe I'm dead. Maybe I died in the service of my country defeating the last infantry of the cyborg robot squirrels on the lawn of the White House dying heroically by sacrificing myself to take out the last evil squirrel with their blinking evil red cyborg eyes knowing that without taking out that last squirrel that that one squirrel would immediately make 12,000 more of the demons and that it was my sacrifice alone that brought them down. Maybe the nation erects a monument in my name for my epic sacrifice. Maybe I sell that idea to Disney and Cyborg Robot Squirrels becomes the blockbuster film in 2020 that teaches not just honor and bravery, but also the power of friendship. Or maybe not...But hopefully I'll still like quotes... I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. -F. Scott Fitzgerald

Epilogue

almost 2 years later

Dear Past Me,

God, I wish I could talk to you and actually deliver this message. You were going through so much and felt so alone. I wish I could...

How am eltl uyo fo dupor i yuo. Efl,i cbstalose yuro oyu yuo tbu acef fo ingeb hte ni ywa reew mnay so odfun oury so sgotrn in. Eihlw it otko a. .
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Egrsdee lpsan heav egt tdergaua ym you iwht ot,n nad wot with ro ni bkac it ylspisob og udwlo my gatniuncoc uyo eoglelc sydtu noe oesblachr ew aedm adn ihhcw vibeeel saotesaci dya auglh! srsta'me ot. A leopmctlye own, in gllainbe irgth dofo ferftdnie m'i ,difel. Sarngti sbxeo saw off at a fo eht btu larcee pay hre,e seoth esdo it lwid cbak ryjneou nmoirsng to egt lal. Utb ifen wkro whti dnto' eaomyrn 'sti i 'mi elidenifty atth lrcdnhei hwit.
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Si ejmrye haypp. Vree than reppiha. He 10 yialfnl aeyr lsao ratfe sthi uatedragd rsay!e.
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J naanjilu ydas yb gose nwo a. Rithe nda are now atcltsnony rggifno ahtp eytr'he lubaefuit tleetadn nad ysnaieln.
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Ni nshgti rncteyrul sa!lkaa edcibrinle si yjo si omes ngoid dna.
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Ew eh fro is aehv uyo dan ldouc erve nreityeghv dpoeh idnf cnerpi do a. Betrte elov it's olvesn in drae ew hnat adn lal wee'r eth. Tub lfees eu'yov a uto lcaep yuo adn that od to nmogiv dne ngmvoi neeb eeborf up enevr ekil ehmo. Ktnih sit' ociniesd het ebst i veer mdae ev'ew.
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Uoy teh to em orf fh:inis ntwdea nbisuses.
Rvledieed stetrel eht ew :1. Last eevry eno. Ni rnoeps.
Ewtand i vtlaer olnnod i and em to 8021 hieteyvrng in ddi idd ot 2: oyu. How ,teslac uesmu,m orotdc wlohe lto hte. Adn orf oantslcd emro to vhae as nvltaierg tpri esmo as i do lelw snpla oserth that teka oeph i. .
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Armett yuo esur khitnnig nto on reew t,sih thaw ouy intoopr ubt btroo orf eth fo qrreuils ruefysol cbryog twha awsaly erwe. Pshea yruo ni kiurqy ""dx eenv. Elyral ouy cwihh lftua rof i cn'ta. Emro roldw a uyo mieignad oulcd stih atnh tfdrefine was elrtet tylideeifn pencamid in so eht leivrde did aevh. .
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Voe,l.
Aennj.