A letter from June 6th, 2025

Dear FutureMe,
YOU BETTER BE A SUCCESS!! DO IT FEARLESSLY!! DO IT WITH COURAGE!! 
Now, all i can say is that i am lost. Habang tumatanda ako pakiram*** ko mas nawawalan ng saysay yung buhay ko. Madalas kong tinatanong sa sarili ko kung saan ako dadalhin ng buhay na binigay sakin ni Lord. I cant even express myself nga eh, it feels like parang theres somebody na may hawak ng buhay ko kasi icant decide on my own. I always take the validity of other's opinion kaya masyado akong nag base sa sinasabi ng iba.  But nagtitiwala sakanya. Nagtitiwala ako kay God na someday, He will make me a better person. Alam kong hindi lang ako hanggang dito. Alam kong may mas ihihigit pa ako and I can be somebody. I can be somebody who will be a financially stable, independent woman, confident, and empowered. 
ayokong tumanda na walang self-esteem at palaging may duda sa sarili. hindi ko alam pano ko sisimulan yung changes but i believe that i can figuro it out on my own. naniniwala akong hindi nya ako pababayaan. 
IM ALWAYS HOPING FOR THE BEST -----