A letter from May 12th, 2025

Dear FutureMe,          He thinks I am afraid of him. He is pushing me as far as I can go. If you are still friends with him I ask you this Why. He wants you to say what he wants. Stop crying about him and fight. If I chose anger now then I would loose my reputation. I hate having to have a reputation. Just.. if you don't do it now you will have anger build up inside you, but knowing me I will let it happen, because everyone knows me as the shy girl a shy girl who is nice and can't stand up for herself or ask for anything, because she doesn't want to be an inconvenience about it. If I was my real self they wouldn't control me, but I have to be friendly and shy when I can only be myself to some people. I guess now I know the what's reality  and what's not. Just Future Me don't keep anger. At least write it down. Stop crying about it at night and be yourself. I know nobody tells you this too often, but I'm proud of you and you should be proud too.