A letter from Feb 27, 2025

Dear JRVL, Happy birthday, Love! Haaays should I still call you love even if you're not mine anymore?? But, I miss you and still love you. You hold a special place in my heart, and you were my first in so many ways. I believe this love will last forever (ang korni). I hope you're enjoying life without me. You're the best man I've ever met. I have to admit, it was my fault why we broke up because I was going through a tough time. If you only knew how much I hated my birthday and Valentine's Day because we broke up after my birthday and two days before heart's day. You asked me if I would be your Valentine pa but yeps things happened—I hate February, lol. I've always checked on you, hoping you'd win me back. I love you that much that everything I do reminds me of you. Even watching kdramas to cope hasn't worked. Imagine, I'm crying during the romantic moments?? I should be crying during the sad ones but nah. Our first conversation was so silly, full of korni banats, and you opened your heart to me. You fell first, but I fell harder kung alam mo lang. Life was so exciting with you. I cherish every moment we shared. Remember when we broke up and you asked me why I love you? It's because I want you as my partner in life, I can see my life in the future with you and I love you so much, and I love every thing about you. For over a year, I thought you were my life partner, that we'd be together forever. What happened to us? Why did we break up? I know it was my fault, but why did you let me go? Why didn't you wait for me to become more stable and try to fix things then? Today, I realize I can't take back what I did, and I've decided to stop bothering you. That's why I'm sending this email months later, knowing you'll celebrate your birthday without me. You'll be 20 years old. I think you've probably moved on, and maybe you've even met the woman of your dreams. Newaaaaaaay, I'm praying that one day I'll be back in your life, and I'll do everything to win you back. I'll never lose hope that we'll have a second chance— But if the time comes, tell me if you don't love me anymore so I can finally move forward, hurt me once. Take care of yourself. Hppy birthday! Enjoy your special day! I love you always in all ways. I love you, baby!