A letter from Jan 24, 2025

Dear FutureMe, It's almost the end of January of 2025. The thing that I want is not here yet, but I keep trying. It's been 580 days from my last permanent employment and 244 days from my last break from work to pursue studies. I'm in such a weird situation that nobody but me enforced it on myself mixed with "unique" situations that make up part of my identity, but I kept going on the path I believed in. Looking at the bright side, I would have never been able to come in conclusion to what I really want to do for myself if I didn't have such an extensive break. The time I have had, I value. The resources I have had, I'm grateful. The people I've connected with, I treasure. The moments I've had, I'll remember. What's comimg towards me, I look forward. I am in a much healthier place mentally despite the lack of forseable stability in my life. How are you doing now? Have we understood why we're doing this? Were we able to close a chapter? Can you embrace us now with every rights and wrongs a little more now? Love, Me