A letter from Jan 28, 2025

hi, I don't know what to say. I don't know what to feel too. I met some people after u, some treated me right and some mistreated me too. I don't understand why u never leave in my mind. I guess u really have a special place in my heart. our very last communication was the month of May year 2024 if I'm not mistaken. sof, after our failed meet up cause we never meet. I made a song about it. on how I waited for years, I prayed to God in that church u visited to meet u someday. I even asked Him, even u just pass in my sight, it will be enough. I don't know but until now my heart still hopes that I'll meet u, see u with my own eyes and u're alive. moving, breathing and happy. I really wanna see how beautiful u r. the girl in my dream, the girl who stole my heart in silence. I guess, I'm not really getting over u. honestly, u're the last girl that I've been very faithful. I never feel attracted to anyone else, just u that time. but now I'm doing my best to be a better person for myself and for my future partner if ever God will provide. at the moment, I'm focusing to myself. I always remember u with the song that u sang to me before, if u remember the "favorite girl by justin beiber". before, I don't wanna hear it cause it reminds me of u and it hurts me a bit. after months, years, I wanna hear it now atleast once or twice a week. mixed emotions: happy, sad, inlove, brokenhearted, peace. I'm not gonna lie, there will be always a lil hope that I'm holding on for us to meet. I guess, I miss u.