A letter from Jan 26, 2025

Dear FutureMe, hi its me again... I'm currently listening to SATURN BY SZA and BIRDS OF A FEATHER BY BE and two remind of a part of my life in 2024 when i was happy. just yesterday i had Hockey trails and i think it went rlly good. Anyways so on FRIDAY 24th i met this guy at school. he is in a different school than mine bcz he came to my school for an inter-house meeting at school. I think he rlly likes bcz we were flirting and all but rn i don't rlly feel him anymore. But my bsf thinks I'd dumb not to talk to him. OHH AND PLOT TWIST... on the same day my bsf and I were playing around and she picked me up and then we kissed... now i know I've been having feelings for girls s a girl but i don't think she feels the same way as me... that kiss could've meant nothing to her. And besides i don't know if she likes girls or maybe I'm being delusional but i would not mind dating her at all, matter of fact I've had feelings for her since the day i met her in 2023 and over time i had to learn to lose feelings for her bcz she didn't seem to be into girls. And now I'm just having mixed feelings about all of this. AND I NEVER THOUGHT I WAS RLLY PRETTY ENOUGH FOR A GUY TO LIKE ME!!!! BTW i don't have the guts to tell my bsf i like her sooo.....