A letter from Jan 18, 2025

Trigger warning : ⚠️ pathetic horny 16-yr-old yearning dump⚠️ **** I miss him so ******* much I stop myself from texting him every day, every thought I think I can't just be friends with him Not after all we've been through After all the nights we've spent together, All the adventures we've been on All the things we made I understand now why people delete photos It's literally erasing history I don't wanna delete our photos I don't want to erase history I want to be able to forever enjoy the memory Sometimes they are all I have I miss him in every single part of my life I wanna talk to him Wake up with him in the morning Brush our teeth together Make breakfast together Do our daily chores together He can make breakfast and I can do the dishes Or vise versa I want him to hold me when I'm sad and be the reason I keep going I want him to know every part of me and love me still I want him to Drunk text me cause it means he's thinking about me I'm not doing that though I have other friends, other support, I can do it with out him. Even if we break apart, ill be okay I'll be sad and forever be missing pieces of my heart pie but I would be okay Slowly the parts of me that miss him get quieter and quieter and easier to ignore I really hope the same isn't happening to him but I know it is How could it not be It's okay if we break apart for a bit and come back together later on My worst fear is that we'll not be able to come back together I wear more lavender and rose than jasmine I love ylang ylang and jasmine but only in the happy times When I was younger at eclipse and when im with him, I guess I also associated it with him. I left him my old jasmine perfume He wore it a few times while I was with him I wonder if he smells it still? And my jacket He told me he wears it sometimes I yearn for him too I miss the love we used to have The time we spent together It was so perfect I don't know if I can have that with anybody else *** is great but he is better *** WITH him I can't think of anything better Even better than Jet skis And goop Also who else am I gonna find who would cover themselves with Glow-in-the-dark glitter to have *** with me? Who would make me butter noodles after my fist time? Who doesn't just put up with me but joins in on my life? Who would help we with anything as long as I asked? Who would suck my neck and bite my ears and kiss me everywhere without any hesitation I also now understand why sleeping with someone else would really help to get over someone That's why I havnt done it yet I worst part is I'd do it all for him Anything he asked If he asked me to be somewhere That's where I would put all my energy into being I'd figure it out I'd pull him in for a hug and a cuddle And I'd kiss his face any chance I got no matter who was watching I'd make sure that he knows how much I truly love him