A letter from Jan 18, 2025

Dear FutureMe, I hope you are doing well. I am writing you from an unsure place. While I feel I have made a lot of progress, there are some stuff I feel like I can work on, for my own sake. I still have trouble communicating directly and honestly. I am really afraid of being vulnerable, asking people to hang out feels too risky still. I am still doing the thing when i get to a new place and get excited and say yest to everything but I don't keep in otuch with people, so i don't feel close with anyone, one year in. Motivation is sparse, even-though I am on anti-depressants I am rarely motivated. Which brings me to my current, unsure situation. My work contract is getting renewed. However, I don't find this job fulfilling but I don't know what fulfillment feels like. Hopefully you have gotten closer to that. I hope you got off antidepressants and it wasn't too much of a hustle as it was getting on them. I hope you don't need them anymore. I hope you have a healthy dating life. I hope you manage to get closer to people, and that makes you less uncomfortable by then. Also, make sure you nurture the connections you already have. I hope you are less worried about money and the future. I hope you acknowledge that you are in a good situation. Love, Past Self