A letter from Jan 17, 2025

Hey bro, what you're doing? How are you? Now, during your first finals you really got cooked by the exam; it wasn't realy hard but you got 18 in CHemistry; bro, how? maybe that was okay; but others? My parents, myself, we all were dissapointed. Maybe because I was topper, my family was topper and I failed to be; and now, whom to blame? whom to blame bro? I don't reallly know if I was doing the right thing with all those projects, i dont know bro; How? what to do? Of course I could be topper but I chose this way - to be "projectman" and not a topper of the class... I think, maybe I am doing wrong and maybe even now I can change it?! Can I change it, bro? idk; maybe forgetting all those projects and dive into studies - calculus, lag, physics and doing projects sometime in the next years?! I thought and still have a bit of faith that I can handle both but to be realistic - I cannot; I dont know man; I dont know, I want my parents be proud of me - not saying "we expected 5 from you, how could you get 4?". I thought I can handle it, man; what to do? I'll write down if I will find an answer... God shows the righteous path...