A letter from Jan 16, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Im currently sitting in the lecture hall in the middle of a presentation My feelings have been a roller coaster of emotions lately up and down People who i thought would never hurt me did , and I was too blind to see it until someone pointed it out So yeah now even people I trust I know one point will disappoint me Another thing happened today , another person I hold close to my heart More even than the first I have my suspicion but I'm not sure And I really hope it's not true Because then that means that that person didn't trust me enough with a secret I know I joke around a lot but imp is imp and I wouldn't It won't end our friendship I know that But I won't get people that close to me ever again because that's what happens when I do I trusted that I'm important in their life as much as they were to me But everyone sees me as a child Akh what's wrong with me