A letter from Jan 04, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Its 2.13am and ive had a tough day today and its just the 3rd day of the new year. I was saying today is an unlucky day for me cus it felt like that. Out of sudden today didnt feel good. Not sure why but i feel like i wanna cry and shout out loud. Deep down im scared and idk why. I feel like im lost but deep down maybe im not. So clueless and tired. Im single and everything is still haunting me. His words and im scared what if one day i believe them and assume its true. Am i really where i was almost 10 months ago?