A letter from Dec 25, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hello. This is you on Christmas Day, 2024. Here are your biggest life goals at the moment - Go to Cambridge/Caltech/Princeton/or at least somewhere in Europe - Get a PhD after that - Some fancy internships - get a job Cern - Move to Switzerland or at least somewhere in the EU - become EU citizen, living in at least two different countries - become fluent in French, Russian, Dutch, German, and Italian - 98% on ALL school assignments for the remainder of my educational career - Become an f1 wag - or at least get a bf Right now, I hate everything. I hate school, I hate swimming, and my swim coach hates me. Most of all, I hate my grades, some of which are acceptable, some are not. I don't know if it is just because of the higher standards, but I digress. What I do know is that I horribly screwed up on two maths and physics test, and possibly one more. That's contributing to my poor grades right now. It just sucks that I screwed everything up, because I can't read test directions correctly, and I don't know how to study. Last year, in latin, I had a 98, but now I'm looking at a 96. For the most recent grammar test, I didn't study the required vocabulary, and forgot to look at the practice test answer key, simply because I was overconfident that it was easy to figure out. Just remember to do everything explicitly. For french, I can't speak normally. I'm completely baffled at how I made it to the final round of the french speech competition, what with I forgot half of my speech and had to improvise the rest with my mediocre French. There were many recent french tests where I didn't speak with what I had prepared with, and stuttered throughout. My teacher is so strict with tenses, and verbs, so if I want to say something impromptu, it seems like I don't know what I'm saying. I also somehow kept on forgetting on what I wanted to say and just writing this makes me cringe, so just try to go back in your memory to Worst of all, I HATE HARKNESS DISCUSSIONS. THEY ARE THE BANE OF MY EXISTENCE. WHENEVER IT IS USED IN ENGLISH OR PHILOSOPHY OR HISTORY I WANT TO **** MYSELF. I SCREWED UP ON MY ENGLISH HARKNESS, I KEPT ON STUTTERING, FORGETTING LITERALLY THE MOST BASIC WORDS AND making no eye contact. I feel that I will get a 3 in communication. max. Speaking of Max, he is your current obsession. After Charles Leclerc's win in Monaco Grand Prix, people at your school were screaming on instagram, and you decided to find out, once and for all, whatever the hell is Formula 1. You originally decided to support Charles, what with he's the driver who got you into sport in the first place. But Max, oh my Max Emilian Verstappen, stood out amongst the pack. You originally were drawn to him due to his dominant 2023 season, and who wouldn't want to support a winner. Soon, you realise that your personalities are identical, and he is the person you are most similar to in this world. He also has very pretty bone structure, and fulfills 80% of your standards list. However, I think that our child rearing philosophies would be too different for us to be successful. Him and Kelly, whom you are very divided on, are having a baby. You desperately wanted it to be a girl, but you felt in your gut that it is definitely a boy. You are cringing reading this, am I correct? It's ok, Max can live out his life as a girl dad eventually. Your current top 3 drivers are Max Verstappen, Oscar Piastri, and Andrea Kimi Antonelli. I absolutely hate swimming. I don't know how I ever liked it, or how I ever stopped liking it. I want to quite. Anyways dearie, here are just some of your frivolous, girlish fantasies. You may laugh at them now, but remember, this was your life just 5 short years ago. xoxo, you