A letter from Dec 18, 2024

I know nothing about life, ik im supposed to learn as I go but idk. I know what I want and don't want in life though. I know I don't want to be caught up in the idea of being "successful", such as competing for the highest grades, the best scholarships, and jobs, in exchange for what? Yes, I would be "successful in life", but does it have any value? I don't wish to lose the meaning of life. I wish to seek knowledge, explore, learn, and see. I don't wish to get caught up in such made-up concerns. The fact that I'm thinking like this shows how privileged I am, and I am aware. However, I truly believe life is meant to be lived, not just whatever that is. Of course, I work hard to get good grades and I will continue to work hard to get into a prestigious university, however I will continue to acknowledge that these achievements shouldn't blind you, or hold you hostage. Don't dedicate your life into getting good grades, getting scholarships, getting good jobs and climbing positions at that said job. There is more to life than that. I want to own a nice modest house, where I, along with my cats will live. I might adopt children, just cause I truly wish to raise children, treat them the way I wished to be treated and help them cultivate a healthy mindset that'll benefit themselves and society. However, I'm not sure if I'm exactly cut out for that so I'll keep that plan on a pause until I feel like I'm ready. I want to explore countries, listen to different stories from world wide, learn history, and grow as a person. The day I become successful is the day I'm capable of knowing who I am, what I believe and my thought on the world in which we reside. As of now, I can not answer the questions beyond surface level. This will be the last Christmas in which I am a sixteen year old. I will dearly miss it.