happy transition birthdayyy

Dear future badass ***** from 2025 ✨ Today is your 1st egg cracking birthday (I think? I should double check the diary before sending this lol)! And in less than two months, 1 year of hrt. How do you feel? Do you feel bonita? I'll tell you how I feel right now. Absolutely overwhelmed and happy and sad and crying all the time. But less angry. And no more suicidal thoughts, finally. I hope we're not angry anymore. How's your confidence? The dysphoria has been absolutely crushing my self esteem lately. But we'll get there eventually. I'm already starting to accept that being cringe is being free anyways hahah **** it. I'm proud of myself, too. I've successfully defeated the gym anxiety and I'm going almost everyday. My butt and thighs are definitely getting bigger too, lol. Still fighting the eating disorder though. And body dysmorphia. We're definitely healthier, though. Last year was rough, and the first semester of this year... Do you remember? Of course you do. Ohh yeah and congratulations on almost a year without cigarrettes!! I *REAALLY* hope we didn't go back to smoking. And cut back on the weed, ffs I hope you don't hate our tattoos anymore. I hope you feel safe(r). I hope you feel pretty. Got a new job, start date is next week.. I'm sick of programming. Had to take a picture to send it to HR, and choose between male/female tshirt sizes. Also, less than 3 months until your birthday. You HAVE to celebrate it this year. Its been like what, 20 years since you last had someone sing happy birthday to you? **** that, we're worth celebrating. But don't worry, I'm helping you out right now. I'm rebuilding our friendships. Gradually. What about mom and dad? I've cried at least four times trying to write this. When will this rollercoaster of emotions eeeend? D: I hope you're proud of me Get more tattoos, Love ya