A letter from Nov 25, 2024

Dear big me, life's giving me a hard time right, grade 11 is when grades starts to count and im trying my best. The grades are mostly fine besides math. I took it last year but it didnt work and i took it again in summer school but that was the worst idea ever. we had a big panic attack and it was horrible, do you even remember that or have we moved on and replaced those bad memories. i guess right now im feeling sad because i was ahead but it didnt work out. I feel behind and dumb. Its my 3rd time taking this course so why cant i get it right? i dont want to feel the dissapointment of failing again and it'll hurt worst because this is the 3rd time feeling that same dissapointment. i want to make you proud and mom and dad too, they care about us alot make sure to show them you love them. Im trying my very best in math right now, i hope it pays off, i want to make you proud. No matter how things end up im proud of you because i know you tried your best. I know you did great and i love you . im sure things will work out but right now i cant help but feel sad. i get stuck with bad teachers but i feeling like its my fault, this is my 3rd time taking this course after all. i feel as though my best is not enough. i know this letter seems a bit negative but part of the reason im writing this is because i know you'll make it through all this, i want you to tell how far we've come. I really hope it get better, i wonder how much as changed. are you still dating ur bf rn? the boy u thought was a red flag at first? maybe you broke up with him and ur getting over ur first real love. im currently thinking about transfering to st pats for grade 12. did that work out? i wonder what things are like for you right now. i want you to remember you are worthy, sosososo beautiful and smart. You deserve ever good thing that comes your way and you're so loved. If you ever feel lost or lonely just know im thinking of you, and i think you're worth it. im sure you're achieved great things because ur so amazing. i'll send this to u around the time you graduate. i hope it showed you how things get better and i want you to remember how strong you are. i hope this made you cry and you think wow little me is so wise. go give mom and dad a hug and keep a positive mind, i know you can do it N, im soso proud of how far we've come, no matter what. i love you always - N