A letter from Oct 08, 2024

Dear FutureMe, i am inlove with a woman right now. her name is kylie jules. i call her kyle cause that's what she wants. anyway, things has been going well and we've been talking for 2 months now. crazy isn't it? I really thought I'll be over girls already and I've gotten straight but oh well..I find myself deeply infatuated to this woman rn. She gets me and she listens to me attentively to everything I say. This might me cliche but i think i love her. I've been wanting to let her know that i do but I'm afraid it's too soon to say the three words. Well, that's why my notes app lives for free. I'm just thankful i get to meet her and to reawaken my homosexuality. I always knew I loved women (romantically and platonically) I'm also feeling a bit repulsed to men already. Idk,,,, am I a lesbian? i'm pretty sure i am not (yet) but who knows. Other than that, I'm happy with my ****** preference. I love women period and that's all to say. Back to Kyle, idk she's something..her personality is interesting and I can't quite put my hands on her wholeness but I ought to know her deeply. I just know i really like her. We've been flirting a lot too which is... typical but flirting with her feels so...idk uhm intimate? My past experiences with guys, I'd always feel disgusting after doing it which is something unexplainable to me. But with her, I can be myself freely. She matches my freak and even if sometimes she doesn't, she understands that my *** drive is unmatchable. She listens and listens until I have no more left to say and that is my softest spot. I've always wanted to be heard and that's what she do. I just hope she doesn't break my heart cause that would be awful. Anyway, if this doesn't last forever then it's gonna be okay for me too. Things just happen and at least I get to pour my love on her. That's all I gotta say i think. I'm off to bed now. I hope you're happy and I always wish you the best. I love you- more than you'll ever know. just keep swimming.