A letter from Oct 01, 2024

Hey there! I've been putting off writing this letter for a while, but it's time to get it done. It's also time for me to catch up on my journal entries from the beginning of the year, but it's complicated to find the time and motivation... I'm really exhausted right now. It’s been three weeks since I went back to school, but I still don’t feel like I’ve gotten used to the pace yet. I hope you’ve managed to get your time organized in a stable and productive way by now. I don't really like my class, except, of course, for Iliana, Maddie, and Enzo, who's sitting next to me in almost all the subjects (reminds you of someone, doesn’t it? 👀). His code name is Zebra, as I hope you remember (if not, worry about your memory, girl). I’m not sure if I might have feelings for him, but there’s definitely chemistry. Iliana says I have a certain type when it comes to guys, between Canary Mint and Zebra—yeah, you can see the similarities. What bothers me is that he’s Anna’s (the one next to me in English) ex, so it would be weird if I dated him, but unfortunately, that just makes me want him even more. I know my behavior is possessive and toxic, but I guess it’s just how all the jerks I’ve dated have made me. I’ve really expanded my friend circle this first month of school, and I think my current friends are: Iliana, Anna and Sacha (kind of), Anna (the one sitting next to me in English), Enzo, Cassandre and Allya, Neila and Annaelle, Lili, Sacha, and Noémie. I hope these friendships last until the end of the year and even beyond that. Anyway, my classes are really stressing me out right now, and it’s pretty difficult to understand and keep up in most subjects… Even art class is stressful and tough. You probably think I’m dumb because maybe you’ve figured it out by now, but math especially is completely confusing me. All that being said, don’t forget to write another letter (for after the school break and the start of my senior year?), big kisses! I hope you love yourself as much as I love you because you deserve it and I admire you so much! Kisses, You from September 27th, 30th, and October 1st (yeah, it took a while to write this).