A letter from Sep 08, 2024

Dear FutureMe, it’s the beginning of senior year. I still can’t wrap my head around the fact that I’ve made it here. Everyone says time flies and it truly does. I know it’ll be over before I know it. I look forward to the memories made and moments captured in photos. I’m scared of missing out on things or having regrets. Those fears take me out of the moment. I try to live in the moment and get up everyday with a smile. I try to have the “get to” mindset and hopefully it lasts. I’m stressed and overwhelmed with the college application process and worried about what my future will look like. I say I want to go into business management but I don’t even really know what it entails. I don’t know where I’ll be in a year but hopefully I’ll be at a point where I can look back and smile about the good times while still enjoying the present. Hopefully I made the best of my senior year of soccer season and even if we didn’t always win I did what I could and enjoyed it. I love all my friends and my boyfriend and I hope that college doesn’t change our relationships. I have so many anxiety’s that form pits in my stomach and it tells me I’m not enough. I’m not skinny enough or athletic enough, smart enough or pretty enough. These thoughts tear me apart. I’m torn at the thought of leaving high school and the place that’s always been my home. I worry I havnt done enough to set myself up for the future I want to have. I hope that I worked hard and did what I needed to do and that it was all worth it. I hope that o let go of the anxiety’s and just lived. I hope I loved more than I hated. I hope I laughed more than I cried. I hope that Justen is my forever and that my friends are my forever. From beginning of senior year you- live laugh and love in the moment. Smile about the past look forward to the future, but live today. Make everyday something. You don’t have to be perfect or have it all together. You have so much more time. There’s more to life than high school. Love yourself and don’t worry about what other people think of you because in the end it doesn’t matter. Enjoy it all, take in the little things, look for the good, and don’t snooze your alarm.