A letter from Jul 29, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hope you're doing well D. The past couple of months you've cried every day and night. You never deserved that, but I am not mad at God as I trust His plan. I would've never felt the closure I have with the Lord now if I didn't go through this heartbreak. This horrible pain. Psalms 34:18 "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." I have so many questions. Do you still feel His presence? His guidance? Did you end up being A's missing rib? Or did God introduce a new man into your life? The man that can love you the way God loves us? Honestly I don't want to prolong this but I just have high hopes for you. For us. Dear A, I plan on messaging you once I get this on my email. I have never loved anyone the way I loved you my love. It was an unhealthy sort of love. I put you before me multiple times. But at the same time, I did not show you my appreciation enough. You will always be in my heart and in my mind. Your love was genuine, it was warm and comforting. You loved me for who I was. Yet I pointed out your mistakes rather than showing you my gratitude for your love. I love you so much A... and I wont ever regret meeting you and loving you. What we had was special. And it unfortunately had to end in a way we never expected. Honestly, I still pray that you're the one for me. I still pray that this is just a temporary break up. If ever we're still not back together in about a year, I will come back only if you're still single of course. I will be a warmer version of myself. A better version. I love you A. I miss you so much. Love, D