A letter from Jul 28, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Well, it’s here. You’re no longer in your 20s. It was such an insane and wild ride filled with so many emotions and unexpected moments. From the highs to the lows, I’ve truly learned a lot. 29 was one of the most difficult times for us. The constant struggle to get up and find the joy in the day. It felt like the flame inside of you was diminishing. You had a rough couple of years and Everytime something joyous happened, I couldn’t help but feel unworthy of the joy. It pushed us to our limits. Every day having to fight my own thoughts and battle my emotions to do simple tasks. Panic attacks and anxiety followed suit. But, what have I got to be anxious about? I’m just going through the motions of life. Perhaps it’s always having that sinking feeling that I’m going down a path I didn’t expect to go down and forgiveness of myself for the things I regret. At the end of the day, we did it. We made it through. There is so much right now in life that we can be grateful for. Here’s a reminder just to tickle your brain. - you have love and support around you from E. He is honestly the most patient and caring person. I sometimes feel that it’s surprising how we cope together. - you have the freedom to do what you want. Go where you want. say and feel how you want to. Own them all. - I’m grateful for being able to have emotions and it’s important to remember that the good is with the bad and that there is good in bad. We have to feel the emotions to get through and be the light within ourselves. So now we are 30. We are studying again, a PGCEI which hopefully will be able to project you to where you want to be. What is the dream? Do we still have a dream? Are we still going to karaoke? Singing was always such a precious emotion to me and a power I felt when saying each word out loud. Do we still like Pokémon? How is your health? Please prioritize your health. Did you finally put down your distractions and take action on your life? I hope so. But he, you’re doing your best every single ******* day. Life is…. Unique. Challenging. Superb. Joyful. Courageous. Exciting. A mind **** at times but nevertheless life is life. We go through motions and emotions. Besides an emotion is basically a motion in action. Lower your stress levels. How is your YouTube channel? Did you find a niche? Did you move on to something bigger and better? I hope you are happy. Growth is a journey not a destination. Believe in yourself. Love yourself. Be happy within. Care less. Seriously give less of a **** to things that bring you down. All things will pass. Trust me. You’ve got this. I believe in you. I love you. I’m here with you every single step of the way. You’re not alone I promise you that. Even when you feel like you are always by yourself and that may be but you have me (you). Keep going with life. Take things by both hands and RUN with them. Run like you’re running into life. Enjoy each moment and be passionate about what you love and who you are. Again. I love you. Forever and always don’t ever forget. Happy birthday. Love, past you. 31 will be exciting.