A letter from July 26th, 2024

Dear FutureMe,
Today marks the start of what would've been a life together. You're finally done with school, we can finally focus on each other. Instead, we broke up. 9 years down the drain & 3 weeks before our elopement. I'm numb. I'm a nervous wreck, the future is now suddenly wide open & yet so unbelievably scary. Life has a way of doing things for you, rather than to you. I'm not at that point yet, but I hope in a year from now, I'm not the same mess I am currently. My heart shattered by who I thought was my person, & I'm back to the house I am most ill from to recover. I hope this gives me the push to finally start going out & doing things on my own terms. I have a dog who loves me, who's world also just flipped upside down. I'm unsure of everything & while that's my current situation, I hope when I read this, I'll be okay. Whether it be getting a part time job that enables me to keep my benefits, get my license back from being medically suspended, both, or whatever else is in store for me. I'm disastrously afraid, but I'm hopeful. Maybe.