A letter from July 26th, 2024

Dear FutureMe, im deeply devastated sa inact ko lately. i was triggered and was controlled by my own emotions. i acted out. i became immature handling my own thinking which lead me to feeling guilty and resenting myself. it feels crap to not being able to handle it well and i totally give in to what my thoughts were telling me that time. and i think, im being clouded by the thought that i may not be able to perform again bc i acted immaturely. that's not so very nice of me. i felt the need to say sorry but maybe ill look as if being submissive hence it was my way to show that i am reflecting on my bad behavior. but that would be cliche. idk. huhu