A letter from Jul 23, 2024

Dear Future Me, Hello again JK, I hope by the time you're reading this letter... YOU WILL BE 21 YEARS OLD!!!!!! There are many things I have to catch you up on since the last letter. I had to drop out of college since FAFSA became more stricter than normal. Yet, the results of that are that now my mom has to renovate her id for me to be able to go to school again. Now, since I haven't been going to school all I have done is work. I forgot to mention, I got fired from CFA. I have been expecting it to be honest, but it got me by surprise when I got fired. After that day, I started to apply to other types of jobs like Target, Walmart, HEB even. I eventually applied for the bank we have an account with. That actually became one of our best decisions yet. As always, there are cons like every other job. It's the sales, I have to market to meet my goals every month. I have to get 20 as my expectation but minimal 15 accounts. Now, I can say I feel more better mentally than I did in CFA. Now, I get paid 15 dollars an hour which is better than 12 dollars an hour. Yet now I'm always scared to be short or over on money... That now I'm always careful on everything. If I'm being honest with you........... I feel stuck. I don't know what I'm doing. Maybe because now, I have the peace that I always wanted but I don't know what to do with myself. I have many dreams such as doing what I love but it feels so hard. On my birthday, it was theming this year of BTS which I loved to be honest and that's something I'll never forget. K-POP now.... In the last letter I wrote to you was when they enlisted in the military... Updates: Jin was released in June 10 I think and this year Jhope will be released in October something but it's almost time till every member is released soon. I miss them every day to be honest. Actually, I've been saving money for them know I have 1025 right now. I've been trying to save money for a car which has been hard because there have been days where I need the money like for food or personal necessities. Yeah, I can't believe well be 21 next year like it's something I can't believe. Imma make like 2 years since I joined BTS. WOW, almost 2 years. I can't believe it. I hope by the time we hit 21, we got a plan on what to fix about ourselves and plans to be someone in life. Someone successful and where we can help ourselves mentally. Otherwise, be happy and healthy. Right now, we're leaving in peace and that's something we have wanted since we were 13 years old. You got this. I know you do. Fighting!