From 2024

Hey me, i don't really know how to start this 'cause im reading everyone else's letters and they just seem to know what they're doing, and i don't know what to talk about. we're about to go into sophomore year and i'm not really that scared 'cause i've been having a lot of ideas about life and love recently. if life's a gift then why should i waste it being scared of growing up, we're all growing up all the time so i don't get what the point would be to not try and be ready for it? make the most of it. you just gotta chill out, things will take their course regardless of you, so just go with the wave. anyways, i'm writing this now because i saw the reminder email and i remember writing one like a whileeee ago, i don't know when it's coming and i don't remember what i wrote. it was when trump was president so i was like 8-11. yea so the political situation is a lil wicked right now- biden just dropped out and trump got shot- i read through agenda 47 'cause i think it's pretty obvious trump's gonna win now and it seems a little scary i won't lie. i'm only 15 so i'm just tryna get a grasp of politics but this sorta stuff doesn't seem right. i agree with some of the stuff he's tryna do but other stuff seems like it's just gonna set us back, especially in terms of education (like what's up with the 1776 commission). i don't know much about politics though anyways i think i might be bad at love because i'm not in love with my girlfriend (of about 3 months) right now. i like her a lot, but she's always saying how we're gonna be together forever and how much she loves me and i know i don't feel that deeply about it. i don't think it's wrong to keep dating her, though, because it's not like i secretly hate her, i just don't love her like she loves me. it's hard to explain 'cause i don't wanna be a bad person or like lead her on, but i'm completely indifferent to being with her. like being in love is just something to do or say, it's not really ingrained in me like i think it is for her. i hope that doesn't make me bad, but i'm always thinking about how i would feel exactly the same about her if she broke up with me or if she proposed to me. nothing would change, i'm just indifferent. i don't think most people date with a deadline, 'cause i don't wanna keep dating her into college, but she might wanna keep dating so i dunno. we'll cross that bridge when we get to it. i'm straight yapping but i got 2 more topics i wanna cover. also it's prolly entertaining for people to read longer stuff and you're prolly gonna enjoy it in a year. so the first thing i wanted to say was i'm not stressed about school but i wanna do good. i'm #3 in the class right now (but a LOT of people are tied for #3, and i wanna be valedictorian), and i'm a straight-A student. i'm taking a lotta AP+honors classes, and last year they weren't really that hard, but AP chem is gonna suck I already know. my school area has this really cool opportunity for juniors+seniors where they get to do like 'better' school for half the day, but to qualify i have to do really good this year. i don't think it's gonna be too hard, but if i don't get in then i don't know what i'm gonna do. hopefully i get in! last thing, i think brainrot is so stupid, everybody i know uses brainrot terms (me included, but i'm tryna stop). i can't go one more day hearing skibidi sigma rizzing in ohio, i think i might lose it. hopefully next year they'll all be dead terms. and hopefully they aren't just replaced with worse brainrot terms. i feel really bad for gen alpha 'cause there's that whole thing where they can't read and write, and it's not their fault, they're just kids, but it does make me wary for the future. anyways yea that's all. hope 2025-2026 is better, see you in a year. -2024 me