A letter from Jul 21, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I knew it has been a year since i graduated and it feels like i didn't do **** and may be just maybe it's true but I am trying, I feel like, idk what I am feeling bad, I am consistently comparing myself, I am never enough and I don't feel like I do enough, I feel like trash honestly, I am turning 23 and it's another year of accomplishing idk 0 **** honestly it seems like I am demolishing my yoga skills and my body flexibility is becoming trash, my body strength is ******, my written english is trash and my communication skills is ****** and for god's sake my oral hygiene is more than trash and I am have been cooking for long enough now, i can do better. bs my motivation to do **** is just not here and I believe rn I have built better self discipline, but it's hard to get up, it's hard to do ****. I don't feel happy and I feel empty and lost . I am writing this so I can look back and know that it wasn't easy, It's hard as **** I am not feeling good and I just want to get to the point where I let everything go and just do whatever I can and just trust god yk anyways I wish you all the happiness and peace in the world. XOXO, Am