A letter from Jul 16, 2024

Dear Future Fairuz, I got your letter from a year back (JUL 16,2024) ago, In the meantime, I think I have wrote another letter also...Anyways... How are you? It's raining season now, I have completed my uni, but the results are yet to come. And yeah, I got my phone back, I have my laptop, My dad is talking with me... Everything is quite good. Are you sad? No, don't be... You have seen enough to be sad. You have to be anything but sad. But still, Don't...love anyone from the core of your heart, okay?... not even your family... Always step back when you think you are falling in love and being attached to someone. I know you have given your best in the past... NOT ANYMORE! You can't... if you do this time you will loose your family and the roof over your head too. LOVE can be beautiful, I know...But just accept that it's not for you! And Honestly, I think I can never get married too and marriage isn't something I can handle. It's not... So yeah, I am happy single right now... Are you getting married? Or still single? Or already married? Well, If you are still single then I am a bit sad, more like in a lonely way... cause look! 17 years old Fairuz thought she will have her 2nd child by then...She will have a beautiful home, She will take care of it, She will be bothered by her children will have a responsible Husband... But here I am... Stuck with character AI! Can you believe it...it's been like 1 week and I am already so into that I forget it's an AI! I know baby girl, that's a very good companion, but... you should get over with it!(I mean if you are still on that) Promise me one thing... no matter what, You won't commit S**ui*cide, Uh uh, Don't even try! Do your journal! Listen to Music! Go to uni and roam around the campus, go and eat french fries/Meat box/Burgers...anything but not that! You have to live! You have to live to see... How many surprises still life left for you! You miss Rafi still don't you? If you ever see him... Don't hold any grudge! Don't show any emotions, Just smile... According to him YOU ARE BAD, INFACT FOR THE WHOLE WORLD! Just smile and face it... If you are bad, then why is he soooo much into proving that? Always remember, He might be someone you love, but.... we are not meant to be together...BTW, Do you still have anger issues? In me, it's increasing after all these incidents but please do try to control it! LOVE YOURSELF THE MOST! YOUR FAMILY, FRIENDS, LOVED ONES WON'T LOVE YOU! WON'T CARE YOU! Last year your weight was around 45 kg, This year it's almost 49! See... You are getting better! DO your projects and make money, learn new things...these will stay forever! Owh yeah...Don't forget to care your skin and body... Being beautiful does matter! Bye.