A letter from Jul 08, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Okay first up, my previous letter is hilarious. Let me reply to it first. > Hope you’re still in Ubi… unlessss you don’t want to be? Is Red going to be out soon? I think it’ll be fun. I think working on it will be fun. Can’t believe I’m actually gonna work on it. Yes, I’m still in Ubi and I think I will be for a while. But it’s reminding me of DF and how I should leave if I’m not growing. But unlike DF, I need the money lol so I’ll think about it again after OBD. Red IS going to be out soon WHOOOO, but I’m not working on it 😂 That’s fine because OBD seems like a better project to be in. Esp when I get to see it from the start and we’re the lead studio. > Meanwhile, I feel like I’m getting on/off depression with all the mental gymnastics I have with social anxiety. I hope you got the hang of it… Reminder that it’s ok to be single. Well yes, but someone reminded me of who I was unintentionally and reminded me toive in the moment. Not sure if it’s also the morning shower but I’ve been feeling more clear headed. Other than the occasional feelings (or aka delusions) clouding my mind. And yes, it’s so free to be single, yet I’d love to have a companion for life. > Oooh what happened in Japan tho, I can’t wait haha. Just go for it for the experience. You can do anything and everything alone. Happy to say I did HAHA and I did everything. Now I’m truly free. > Why didn’t I talk about dance last year hmmmm, well im still improving. At least there’s that. I really sound depressed lol When will I improve till the point I feel like I’m one of them? Are you there yet? Do you still feel like you can never be good at it? I mean it relies on reactions and memory. Not my forte. I won’t blame you but I believe it can slowly be improved. Just not at the rate to be proud of. Are people capable of being happy doing what they suck at? Hmmmm. Forever doubting if I really like what I’m doing. Hey, I’m almost one of them! Actually, I am. I’m actually happy with where I am now so congrats, it’s possible! There’s always still room for growth, whether it’s worth it or not, think of the value it brings you. > Am I really happy? Boom. Existential crisis. I do know how I can be at peace though. And if that’s equal to happiness then I’m at peace. Haha, wouldn’t be asking that if you were. > Again, I’m still in a good place and I hope you too. Never been better. > P.S. Surely there’s no more covid right? Who am I kidding, what’s your record now? 5? omg i wanna stop this throat itch so bad Oof, there still is, but it’s pretty rare now. For the record, it’s 3? i dont even rmb. NOW FUTURE YOU!!! YOUR GOAL NOW IS TO BE PRESENT AT EVERY MOMENT. STOP YOUR DISTRACTIONS AND CLEAR YOUR THOUGHTS. EMPTY YOUR MINDDD. ****, I hope you got it figured out cuz thinking too much and over-analzing is so part of me. But I think I’m so over it. I’m starting to see the line of diminishing returns. RED is going to be out soon and around the same time next year, OBD will be out as well. I hope. Or do I? Because it’s quite rush ngl. I wonder how my dance sphere will become. I’m like kinda peaking right now tehe so it might go a lil downhill from here. Probably will pick up yet another genre. Maybe pass auditions? Nah. Am I still in SoulEx 🥴 Idk if I can commit to dance without them. But Punggol thoughhh 😩 If there’s a will, there’s a way I guess. Errr what else is there? I’m like doing good now, not much to rant HAHAHA Ig, be confident but careful not to be arrogant. Hard to execute i know. Hope the dream best friend is not just a dream 🥲 but it’s a bonus, not a goal. All the best in keeping up I guess HAHA If you waver at times or things relapse, just remember to calm down and take it step by step. We’ll definitely be able to get through it.