A letter from Jul 07, 2024

Dear FutureMe, So.. yeah, hi. It's been quite some time, huh. Can I keep the pleasantries at bay? Today, I spent quite some time in the shower, wondering if I really know where I am headed for in my life. Graduation is just around the corner, I will be 20 soon and honestly it scares the living daylights out of me. I have been fortunate enough till now to be able to do the subject that I wanted in one of the most prestigious universities of the country but I am not satisfied. I feel like I have not learnt anything well enough. Sure, I have scored well but when I think back I feel like I have not understood the subject as well as I wished to. I mean, I still love it and there is nothing else I would rather do. But I need to get a job before venturing further. My parents have supported me until now but as my father will retire in two or three years, I cannot live off of them. I feel like I need to work harder. Besides, I want to enter public services, which has a lot of competition and I always get sacred that I am not enough. But this is the first time I have been so single minded about anything. Hey, my future self, work for the ideals you believe in. Be a change and make a change. I hope that as you become an adult, you will let go of indulging in romance stories... honestly, it is eating at my time now and I wonder if it is making my brain rot? I will try to limit myself so that you can be more competent. So, let us make our dream come true, alright? Despite the fear and anxiety. One more thing, please take care of your health, will you. You were almost gone once, will you never learn? Exercise a lot, go on walks, dance and live. Wake up early and don't be so glum. Take hold of your life.