A letter from Jul 05, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I’m really sorry. I have failed you so much. We are turning 19 next month already. Time flies by so fast. Sorry for abruptly loosing our v. That was the only way. I was honestly so scared. It’s better I give it by myself than for me to be forced. Future me, how does the future even look like? Coz right now I’m very down. I don’t even have a direction in my life. Everynight I just keep crying. I just wanna travel out of the country so bad and start a new life unkown. God!!! If you are here with me please take my suffering away. Please. Please grant me happiness. Please grant my my heart’s desires. I just want to be loved. Is it too much to ask for? I feel like just ending my life right now. I need help. I badly do.