A letter from Jul 04, 2024

Dear Nics, I sincerely hope everything is fine a year from now. Idk what decision to take right now. I wish you could give me a heads up. But I do hope whatever decisions I choose, I would be able to take whatever is with it with confidence and happiness. I don't have much free time but I'm writing this letter to tell you that a year ago you're in this office. With cans of paint around you. Sad, confused and drained. You do no physical work but it feels more tiring than any physical job you've ever done. Di ka puyat pero pagod na pagod ka na. Di ka naman tumatakbo pero nahihirapan kang huminga. Di ka naman sinaktan pero naiiyak ka. I do hope it gets better for us. Siguro one tip lang for future self. Let yourself be alone. Mahirap magisa, oo. Pero wala kang responsibilidad. Hayaan nating magstay at dumating ang mga taong gusto tayo kasama. Huwag na natin hayaang maapektuhan ang bagay na gusto natin ng ibang tao. Malaki ka na, alam mo kung makakasakit ka o hindi sa gusto mong gawin. Naniniwala akong responsable kang tao. Kahit sa sarili mo na lang muna. Ako na lang muna. Kahit ngayon lang.