A letter from Jul 03, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I am in Ghaziabad with Masi right now. The Neet exam was a ********. In the next few weeks, I'll have to make a decision. A final decision. I do not know if giving it another try is worth it. I am not stupid. But I sure have been acting like an imbecile for 3 years now. I am on medications and hopefully, everything will be alright in a few more months. This newfound confidence in my looks is suiting me well. But life feels so empty. No matter what I do. I am grateful for Ma and Baba. I have done nothing but disappoint them. And all they want is for me to be happy. No matter how many blunders I make. They are still here. I am still here. I thought I lost everything. Turns out I still have people who always have my back. As for friends, I have Kavya. I don't know if I deserve this much. But I still need something to hold on to. I'm not sad, but I'm not happy either. Just hollow. Inside and out. Bare. I'll learn to breathe on my own. I hope a year from now we have finally found a reason to live. I have never known a more ambitious woman than you. I love you. Take care. Love, Onjo