A letter from Jul 03, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I honestly don’t know what to write, but I feel like it’s necessary that I do, so that I can look back on this some time from now and see how much can happen in such a short while. I realize that I find the slower days much more difficult, it’s hard to find rhythm when it seems like everything is happening and nothing is happening at the same time. I always have a lot of work and in the midst of feeling overwhelmed I ask myself if this is really God’s plan for me. I know that work can be just that, work. But I can’t help wanting more from it. Or maybe it’s that I want more from life. My finances aren’t great, neither is my social life but I’m healthy, I have a job and I’m never stranded. I’m not in a bad place but I’m not in a great place either, and I keep asking “Is this it?”. It can’t be. People around me are moving out, getting degrees, traveling the world, buying houses, getting married, having children, starting businesses or ministries or even podcasts. And it feels like I’ve been left behind. Somehow I feel like God wants me to learn something in Kronos, but I crave excitement. So many buts. How can I be content in my boring life? Lord help me.