A letter from July 4th, 2024

Dear FutureMe,
It's currently 12:55 right now while I'm writing this letter. I just saw a video on TikTok that you can message yourself in the future and that's why I'm doing this. I wanted to see my progress in life. 
I'm sad right now but I don't actually know why. Maybe I'm not fulfilled? well I'm still young so I think it's okay. 
what scares me the most is that what I will be doing in the future. Ngayon.. Hindi ko na alam kung saan tutungo ang buhay ko. I feel like I don't have a role in this world..valuable. 
Am I brave? or a coward? I'm always telling my self that I'm not scared to die on the other hand I'm scared of what will I be doing in the future. Will I be okay? Will I have the progress and fulfillment in life? I dunno! The reason why I'm still striving and fighting the urge of commiting a sin is because of my parents, I wanted to gave back to them. I don't want to see them sitting in my burial, crying, and wondering why I did that. 
Everyday it's the same. Feel like I don't have the energy to live this life. And I hope when I read this letter in the future I will find my path and me in this life.