A letter from Jun 30, 2024

Dear Future Me, (Sorry for the long message you might wanna make time for this one >_<) First of all, happy birthday! You should be 26 when you get this. How is it over there in 2025? How's drawing? Your story? How's work? Did you travel yet? wait does girls band cry have a season 2 yet? Did you lose all that covid weight yet!?? Wait are you still biting your nails? I just finished celebrating my 25th (got greedy and celebrated half the next day as well haha). Played my "Feel Good" playlist throughout the day. Checked twitter (dangerous move I know) then, on a whim, drew a quick doodle to reply to a dude's cute drawing. Then, I went to the gym and had the best cardio session in MONTHS! Then I ruined all that progress by getting some cake for mom and the others LMAO. It's okay though it's my birthday it's like the ultimate cheat day! (I'll lock in harder this week to undo that damage I promise!) I started up some shows that friends recommended to me. I'll prob elaborate l8r in the message. So much more happened but I'll summarize by saying this: Even though I spent it mostly alone, it definitely felt better than last year's! I dunno if you remember but 2023's was a doozy! It happened right between a bunch of nerve-wracking stuff! I had so much planned for my bday and went it rolled around. The stress got to me and I barely did any of the planned stuff. Uncle and Auntie passed away & I wasn't notified till much later. Also, too much time was spent on the whole silly court thingy. That led to the binge-eating stuff & the Japan trip with a friend had to get cancelled too. My mental was in the gutter. That's okay though. That's life! You'll always have more chances to lose weight and take trips with friends. I thought I wouldn't be able to make it to this year but here we are; writing to you! Enough about the dark grimm stuff though. Can I tell you a bit about things that made me happy lately? - The realization that I have friends that make time to hang out with me, even if it's tough & the time isn't perfect for them. - Finding out I have a kind, multi-talented, creative, supportive sister that I can talk to whenever I'm struggling. - I haven't watched any shows in a while but The Apothecary Diaries, Girls Band Cry & Frieren are what I gave a chance after being vouched for by friends. Maybe it's me getting old but I tend to take away deep messages from thin air when watching media! With the first 2, I loved the expressiveness of the characters, their personalities, how they interact and how each of them was unique in their own way. They got me drawing a lot more fanart during this month alone, something I thought I barely had the energy for. Every now and then, you get a harsh reminder of your mortality. It happened earlier with my uncle and auntie's passing. It happened before, & and it'll happen again. That's where Frieren came in. I've only seen a few episodes but I loved every second of it. The message behind it so far is clear, perhaps in the cheesiest way possible: "Live Laugh Love, homie." Do let me know how you feel about the rest of Frieren when you finish it. Just like how these shows have authors that have touched others' hearts, I wish to create my own story and resonate with others as well. I wish to share with them the lessons & experiences I took away after all these years. Appreciate those around you; friends and family alike. Life is too short to be mad all the time. Life is a game, make sure you at least play it. Even if you couldn't "win", you can at least say that you've tried! Go for a high score! Try your best not to have any more regrets. Stay true to yourself. Do what makes you happy. Forgive others. Live. Laugh. Love. I initially was gonna write this letter demanding you work tirelessly towards our goals. But honestly, you already know what you have to do, here are just some gentle reminders: - I'd like to cosplay my favorite characters. So I'd love to get as close as healthily possible to 150lbs and maybe develop a sense of fashion. - Mint is lonely. I hope you give her some friends to play with. She has a whole adventure ahead of her. People to meet, experiences to gain, stories to tell. Don't let her down. It's been a long-winded message but thank you for reading. I do hope you can write to 27yo us as well! The future is uncertain. It's scary. It's a little exciting too! I'm looking forward to what the next chapter in my life entails. If things ever get too hard, I hope you do remember that I'm rooting for you! If nobody else has told you this recently, I love you! Hang in there. You're capable of some crazy stuff when you put your mind to it. Happy Birthday! , - Your No.1 Fan!