A letter from Jun 28, 2024

Dear FutureMe, i haven’t left the house in a week. i’m working tonight, not because i want to. i hope by now you’re motivated and moving towards something. i hope you made it to washington, even though i’ve read the strip clubs there aren’t great rn :/ maybe they’ll get better. we just had the first presidential debate and it was as trash as everyone expected. hopefully whoever wins will bring down the cost of living. i paid $73 for a bag of groceries last week. i’ve given up on dating/ever finding a life partner so there’s that. idk what else to say. for most of my life i’ve been a miserable person. maybe it’ll be better when you’re reading this, maybe not. im just kind of numb to everything right now i guess. at least i have eden. im worried she’s not happy with me. i’ve spent a fortune on her but im still scared i’ve made her life as miserable as mine. i’m gonna try to start exercising more frequently. and eating more costco salads. i’m scared to drive the van since the front flap peeled off. hopefully i have a new car in a year. once i get a new car i can drive to better clubs and make more money. today i need to get eden some wet food, run to the bank, and get gas and zip ties for the car. little tasks seem like mountains to climb right now. i don’t know if im lazy or depressed. probably both. hopefully **** gets better