A letter from Jun 21, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hi. Even though i know hindi kapa tapos sa 1st year mo, I'll call you Daniela in coming 2nd year. I'm going to be honest, the reason I wrote this is because I'm scared. I'm scared on what's gonna happen in my college years (especially math). I fear mathematics. Even just saying this makes me sigh༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ. I knew not taking math seriously is gonna haunt me one day and today is one of those days that made me realize, argh.. im ******. This summer, I'll try my best spending it by advance studying in psychology. I hate suffering, but just like in Buddhism said "life is full of suffering." To understand life, we need to suffer. Ironic isn't? Why live when we'll just suffer anyway? To learn. To understand. Knowledge. Wisdom. Growth. To be enlightened. How many months more it will take for you to move up on 2nd year? Did you stay in psychology or did you shift course? Is it hard(2x)? Are you okay? Are you doing okay? Will you be okay? the answer is needed to be yes(required) haha. Today i saw someone on TikTok and said "Life is too short for me to care about what will people think about what I'm wearing; Life is too short to care about things that I can't control." and it's just the truth. The Universe is too big to worry about such a thing. Even though i know college is hard. Imagine the life we'll experience outside school. 3 years from you now, you'll graduate in college and search for job, met new people, met challenges, cry, laugh, love, everything. There's more life outside school so please, always look at the bigger and brighter side. What? You're struggling and feel like dying right now? You'll live. You're gonna get through it! Think of any problems you have right now as a big stone that need you passed by. It might be hard but you must go on. Even though i really want you to be happy, healthy and be well for college. I can't guarantee us that I'll be doing exercises in college. I know I'm gonna be busy, very. So don't stressed out and just enjoy life. You're struggling with understanding math? How funny is that? You're crying because studying a tons? That's hilarious but you need to learn. We can't run forever. Don't be afraid to ask for help, you can cry and continue. That's just the way it is. I love you, Daniela. No matter what you'll be in the future. We will love us no matter what. Time is flying, remember? So, you need a wings. Let's fly higher and achieve what we want. You'll be fine, Daniela. I'm so proud of you for stepping a foot in college. You're doing so well. You are loveable. You are pretty. You are smart. Be kind to yourself, please be kind to me. I'll continue writing for you in a future. Because I want to check on you once in a while. Thank you, Daniela. For everything.. Thank you.