A letter from June 19th, 2024

Dear FutureMe, hello Kat. 
it's June 2024. the last letter we wrote was in November. right after you moved into the house on Xanthia. 
I was the happiest I had EVER been when we first moved to Denver. it was overwhelming. 
we got married 4/20/21 and I think that is one of your sister's anniversary's too. 
If you **** yourself I forgive you. 
I think you messed up. I'm not sure what is wrong with us. autism or adhd or something? your self talk used to be so positive. 
Your last letters were all "you can do it!" xoxo kisses. 
you stupid naive *****. idk what happened to our self talk but it got worse. Kevin started name calling,  there was violence and yelling, lots of anger. 

Kevin callled and said he would take anger classes and take us to the beach. "I'll do anything" he said. 

but I'm pretty sure he just misses the relationship. it wasn't nice. it was abusive. he has stopped answering your messages. Most likely, he doesn't care much anymore. 
I'm back where I started. it's frustrating. At least I have my career. 

I was so sick after the abortion and so tired. I wish I had someone who loved me for me, no matter what. I think true love does exist but maybe for mostly priveliged people. 
You tried your best I know you did. and if you commit to ending your life I support you. 
But if you stay, you can play video games. work on moving some place safe or something.
I used to be euphorically happy around Kevin we had a great relationship for a while. a routine. we would go out almost every other night and eat food, dance, and come home to smoke weed. 
I didn't want it to be over. it's like the Great Gatsby. you were introduced to a lot of cool things like music and books. 
I think you have poor communication maybe. Whatever is wrong with you, I hope you see a psychiatrist. 
Kevin became increasingly aggressive and misogynistic and a lot of other things. name calling. 
also his dad passed away and he didn't care or talk about it. 
I'm really upset. Can you send an update soon? maybe 2025 will be better. 
Your work is probably all you have right now. Sorry I could not do better for you, but I did the best I could. 
I hope your life gets better. It was bliss for a while. we had peace for a short time. You had everything you wanted a house, partner, cats, Denver. 
sorry it had to end. Do you think I could be that happy ever again?
love ❤️ -Kat