A letter from Jun 17, 2024

So today is Monday the 17th of June 2024 and it’s Eid morning 6:02 to be precise and dad told me to get a bus to work because I didn’t take Eid off. My reason Eid is boring. If you asked why I would say Eid is about family and we don’t have one. But if you asked me on a deeper level I’d say Eid is ment to be about family friends and more importantly sacrifice. eid ul adha honours the willingness of Ibrahim to sacrifice his son Ismail as an act of obedience to God's command. Before Ibrahim could sacrifice his son, however, Allah provided a lamb to sacrifice instead. This story first me means family comes before anything and family is a grate sacrifice but what if you don’t have a family and you don’t enjoy the family you have. I worked Eid and took food with me to work and aaliah said I don’t deserve to take the food but I still did and for this she made me to bed hungry and did I complain yes but I still went to bed hungry. In the morning I woke to a quiet house everyone was asleep only bamis to great me I fed him and went to work worth no message or anything from my family. I sent my sister a message asking her to pick me up what did she do tell me to shut up and make my own way home I get home to find my dad mum and siblings are going to nanos house and I’m staying home. Everyone asked where I was and he said I’d picked work over family and find Eid a wast of annual leave. But if you asked me on a deeper level I’d say I don’t want to spend a day of sacrifice with a family who I’ve always quietly sacrificed my own mental health and happiness for just got a day where dad will go sleep aaliah out Aalim and his mates and me all alone in a house where the animals love me more. Your probably thinking where I’m typing this well it’s currently 0130 in the morning and I’m stay crying in bed trying to be quiet and cry me self to sleep because I’ve made a sacrifice I cared deeelly about. A boy who ment the wold to me listened helped and held me when I needed it and nevertheless he didn’t ask for anything back and I gave sacrificed him all for my dads happiness one day I’d tell you all about him but right now I just stare at his picture and cry me self to sleep or wonder what he’s thinking about how I left him.