A letter from Jun 17, 2024

Dear Youngie, If you're reading this, It was written a year ago today. 17th of June 2024. Its sunny today, I wonder how it will be in a year? I went to work and had a Guiness in Kilpin. Since you showed me that bar, I've been going regularly, hoping maybe one day you'd walk through the door and I could just smile at you and say hello. I had my first Guiness with you too, thank-you for making me try it. I wrote in my diary that I started after you left, I thought if you did it maybe I should see if it helps me. It does, even though I write a lot about you, and a lot about the things I did. Then I remembered this website, Where I wrote myself a letter in primary school. I thought who I would write to now - I could only think of you. I probably wont be in Nottingham on the 17th of June 2025. Maybe I will, I dont know. Since you've been gone, I've found it hard to walk the streets, go to cafes or try the new resturaunts. I loved doing that with you, well, I still love it, even though we don't do it anymore. Oh! I went to your degree show, I wanted to keep the promise i'd see it like you saw mine. I left a note in your portfolio, I wonder what you thought when you saw it; or if you even saw it at all. I stood there for a few minutes debating if I should write something, so I kept it simple. So you know I cared, and that I saw your work. I was/am so proud of you. How hard you worked and your desire to do well is a reason I love you. Seeing you kept the name of your project the same as what I suggested made me so happy. Thank-you for letting me help you, even if I only helped a little. It felt like the last scene of 'nevertheless'. Haha, I know thats a little cliche and silly, but, we watched that show together. The characters remind me of us... Sorry I ended up kinda like the guy from that show. Anyway, I don't want to write too much about my emotions towards you, I think I made it obvious how I feel about you. I sometimes think I was foolish to send you those gifts and letters, but, I think I needed to do it to help me realise what you mean to me. I just wanted to send you this letter so that in a years time you know I'll still be thinking of you, or maybe we'll be friends. I can only hope and wish, though. I'll write another soon. Thank-you for being such a wonderful memory. Thank-you for teaching me not to be scared to travel & to experience good food, good friends and music. I'll leave this here. I dont want to say too much, but just know you cross my mind most minutes of the day; and everday I pray for you to live well. I'll be here, in a year or ten years. Just find me, it wont be hard. As you always said to me. Eat well, Sleep well. salanghaeyo jagi. Sincerely, Your J.